pale purple flowers

could even be weeds

albeit pretty ones at that

all day every day

whenever I care to look

he’s there, worrying the delicate flimsy heads

a bumble Bee, a portly chap, 

bounces like a tightrope walker

too heavy for the tensile blooms

a bulging corbicula

strapped to his knees

baggy trousers brimming 

all day every day

this aerial dance continues

pinballing to and from the buffet

*

© Graham Sherwood 07/21

a new moon

pinned like a tin badge

silver on black

hangs high over Joe’s house,

early stars seem to wobble

loose sequins 

on a cocktail dress,

a recliner, a blanket

it’s a beguilingly warm night,

the garden birds have quietened

save for the restless slap clap

of two belligerent pigeons,

somewhere a hedgehog

is trundling along the gravel boards

navigating to the worm fields,

the evening is easing, the world

my small part of it, exhales,

another day is chalked off

sleep begins to envelope us

tonight, there is no reason

to think about tomorrow.

*

© Graham Sherwood 07/21

words spew onto a clean page

new words still glistening

in their fresh birthing milk,

raw like bile, bitter words

forcing their way out

they capture my eyes, 

callously sneering

use me or lose me 

this is your chance

ripe sweet dewy words before they parch

and become dead, still life

abandoned forever angry

I am weak from this trauma 

but try to fight them, wrestling

like trying to clothe a child

who wants to race undressed 

into the street bare-arsed

oblivious to the stares of others

to condemnation thin as faith

unaware of their folly

until it’s too late

I had the chance to give them life

but worried only how they were dressed

and still they glare, 

a lifeless lexicon, a wasteland , where

I failed to breathe life

*

© Graham Sherwood 07/21

is being awake, woke?

if woke is aware

am I wanting?

if I can’t like everyone

am I a racist?

if so, who says so?

where do I fit?

I may not notice

this new enlightenment

is that my crime?

am I too late

or have I missed the bus?

am I to be labelled irrelevant 

in your new society?

or

am I over-thinking this?

how and why did this happen?

I need to sleep on this!

*

© Graham Sherwood 07/21

on the deck, pots watered up

and earlier clouds have

stopped boxing one another’s ears,

it’s the best part of the day

the warming weak sunshine

sprays garnets and rubies 

through a hole the squirrel made

in the parasol. and

onto my glass of Cairanne, 

pasta and chorizo baking on the hob

reassuringly ready soon,

I have no need for elsewhere

and will settle for these 

creature comforts,

in this moment 

I can almost hear the tomatoes grow

less than a yard away

this is my Eden, my space 

I can breathe here

*

© Graham Sherwood 07/21

for the first time

perched ungainly just above

the reedy margins of the lake

he straightens up, not amused

to look my way

spear beak pointing accusingly

“where have you been”?

 his haughty crusty look implores

I answer only in my head

“away, far too long”

downstream the sluices are open

forcing the half-pipe weir to rage

above the sounds in my head

the Morse code rapping in my chest

“take it easy”

I’ve walked this lake, our lake 

a thousand times

but this time feels

like uncharted territory

albeit still in sight of land

half way now

as the path turns for home, 

light rain spitting on my cheeks

the lake reflects this silver morning

the rippled surface like hammered metal

nearly there

Seamus and Sandra gardening 

ease and wait for me to pass

they’ll expect to hear the full story

from the horse’s mouth

and then I am close, it’s done

another tick off my list

on cue, grey folds to blue

a stroke of warm to reward my effort

I see anxious eyes at the window 

already moving to beckon me through the door 

*

© Graham Sherwood 07/21

sobering nay humbling

I aim for a straight line

a mark on the facing wall

a steady horizon

hoping my legs are strong enough,

confidence is an unbalanced scale

weights move randomly

pan to pan, a puckish trickster

waiting to applaud my fall,

but I see your faces, hear your voices

feel the strength of your love

you who have all stepped to the plate

and so must I.

*

© Graham Sherwood 07/21

(A trio of poems concerning the JR hospital Oxford)

I know she cries when she leaves 

she doesn’t know

I see her reflected in the corridor window,

it’s seeing me wear pyjamas in the daytime

and knowing how I hate it

she knows duvet days aren’t my style 

the last thing I would do,

but it’s part of this captivity 

the gentle chord that bonds

that says you do not have control,

so I break the day into hours

keep busy and tell myself

not to sleep in the daytime

*

© Graham Sherwood 06/21 

the daytime buzz of this place

has quietened to a soporific hum 

traffic has gone home

no visitors remain

but the nurses continue,

in the dark I wonder 

who else could be awake

eating houmous and crackers

at 2am

*

© Graham Sherwood 06/21

There is life is here and sadly 

so too, that heinous demon death,

amongst the tumult the clatter, the 

bongs beeps dings and hums

there is a gentle grace,

they move serenely and do their job

incognito masked, with values shared

from passive cleaner to the knowing 

expert in his field, 

the chatty landladies who change the beds,

the studious nurse dispensing pills,

the coat hook where one’s dignity hangs

as I am toileted like a child,

but within this microcosm

I am the undeserving star,

I am cut and neatly sewn

on the poulterer’s slab

not dead, lucky to be given life

in a game I had to win

*

© Graham Sherwood 06/21