Team Talk

Of course, I recognised them immediately.

It may have been full fifty years, but

behind each lined face still stood the boy,

boys’ faces, which had become grandfathers’ faces

experienced, damaged, both wise and rueful, but

still boys’ faces after all this time.

Wide greeting smiles reminiscent of those damp

Saturday mornings down the park

and the realisation that with my arrival

there would at last be enough for a team,

the match could begin full strength.

We embraced, warm handshakes and shoulder patting

that we would have been too self-conscious

to have performed in our youth,

pints ordered, seats taken, keeping eye contact

each thinking ‘Is this really happening”.

And we’re off, as if fifty years had been but a week.

girls, music, football, teachers, homes lived in,

when and where, who and what,

births celebrated, deaths mourned

there had to be some, of course.

Pulsing through it all, sheer delight

that three of us had survived, each

now in our late-sixties,

with different stories to tell

worlds apart from those childhood times

when we all had the same things,

same houses, same food, same lives

and nothing mattered more than

Saturday mornings and the making of a team.

 

 

© Graham R Sherwood 03/2019

Keep the Faith

Show me a picture of your faith,

a bottle from which to smell its perfume

the plate from which to taste it.

How do you measure your faith,

draw its earthly form

weigh its worth?

Do you know your faith’s song,

hear its serene chords

and soothing words?

Where do you keep such treasure,

safe from theft, from loss,

from negligence?

 

© Graham Sherwood 02/2019

Alys’s pigeons

 

dove,

no,

pigeon,

start again

pigeon–pigeon–pigeon–dove,

no

you can’t say dove after three pigeons

why?

it’s the rules

pigeon–dove–double pigeon

I win

what?

double pigeon always wins

okay

pigeon–dove–double pigeon

I win

no

why?

you can only say double pigeon once

grrrrrrr!

pigeon–pigeon–pigeon—pigeon—pigeon

well done!

you win

I can’t believe I let you do

five pigeons

game over

 

© Graham Sherwood 02/2019

Turn

It’s nearly March, almost

and the yolk of a breakfast sun

just clears the ridge of next door’s roof,

it lolls, if a sun can loll,

like a trapped balloon

occasionally sliding to the right.

Unseasonably warm said the weather girl,

squirrels are trying to outdo the magpies

in a stick-breaking contest

and blue tits come and go

worrying outside their usual box

but haven’t settled in yet.

All this tells me a story

over a sourdough toast crossword

and marmite flavoured coffee,

with the crocus stretching skyward

days are getting longer, lighter

and spring is at the door knocker.

 

© Graham Sherwood 02/2019

Orphan

Looking up, wonderous under a big sky

steel grey, threatening to fall

in an empty school playground

awaiting my granddaughter Alys

the most unusual sensation

of being alone, of being watched

an old-age orphan

abandoned

to deal with a lifetime of life

now suddenly under review

the crushing feeling of inadequacy

scrutinized

how could they have left me

to deal with all this?

 

© Graham Sherwood 02/2019

When the time comes

Often, we are not present

at the start of things,

big things

an infinitesimal spark

far away in the cosmos,

an incredible event

unobserved,

it’s outcome only apparent

after eons.

Under the sea, cataclysmic shifts

in the darkness,

unfathomable power

eventually to make landfall

and spill onto our shores,

a devastating force.

And buried deep within us,

a latent chemistry,

an alchemy lays a plan,

blueprints checked

sequences rubber-stamped

awaiting the signal.

We are helpless,

ignorant

unaccountable

for how we’ll act

when the star explodes,

the tsunami breaches

or the cancer grows.

 

© Graham Sherwood 02/2019

Shadow Man

You stand there shivering, like

a web in a wind

vulnerable but resilient,

easily underestimated.

I consider it best not to touch

just in case, just in case

I find your Achilles heel

and by accident,

destroy something precious,

that can never be put back together.

I have to step back

ignoring the imaginary prodding

between my shoulder blades

that tries to propel me forward

and the disemboweling churn

in my gut urging me to risk everything,

so, I become a shadow, seen and unseen,

but always there.

 

© Graham Sherwood 01/2019

Mantra

Eyes closed

peering into that vague

diaphanous darkness,

three fingers drumming

a reflective tattoo

on the uncleared kitchen table,

breakfast crumb dottles

bounce in rhythm

trampolining,

it’s thinking time

and the day clears

I am ready.

 

© Graham Sherwood 01/2019

I, MP

I understand what you need

trust me,

I have extensive experience

look at my record,

I feel your pain

follow me,

I will take you to a better place

let me make a difference,

I know what to do

believe what I tell you,

I am the right man to deliver

don’t listen to others,

I will never lie to you

your life is safe with me,

I’ll do my best to help

we’re in this mess together,

I can’t make many promises

we do need each other,

I’m only human after all

let me stand beside you,

I would like to do more

everyone is equal here,

I don’t remember saying that

 

© Graham Sherwood 01/2019

Monochrome

It’s only now that I realize

you have sacrificed yourself

to tend her as she lay dying

your own needs sidelined.

Now as clothes seem

to be consuming your body

you’ve all but stopped eating too

meat is indigestible, tasteless

as you are being slowly poisoned

too late to make a difference.

So I’ll pad my heart once more

make it leather,

ready it for tanning

as I watch you fade

to a 4×4 black and white

snap from the past.

 

© Graham Sherwood 01/2019